When there is a change, inevitably there must come with it a level of growth, with this growth small pieces of wisdom enter the scene. I'm sure most of you have heard the saying 'the more you know, the more you don't want to know'- for me this was entirely true, because for me, when you know the truth you know what to do. I have gone through some very serious, very hard, very trying, changes. Some of my former friends felt these changes too extreme and placed an unfair judgement on my life. No human knows my life better than I do, so let me say this; I am bold, I am strong, I am smart, and I am tactful enough to make my choices by myself. My true friends will show themselves to be friends, and those who are unable to handle me can keep it moving.

Now, with all the things I am, there are many that I am not... I am not perfect, I am not the most computer savvy, I am not judgemental, and I am not going to move backwards spiritually.

I will be adding new work soon, and keeping the old. You see, I was lost in a sea of nothingness, consumed by wordly things, confused about the absolute truth, and nearly dead on the inside. I have been broken too many times to claim a single "rock bottom" moment in my life, and somehow through all my garbage, Jesus found His way to me, then let me walk with Him. He picked me up, dusted me off, and reminded me that peace isn't about things working to what I think the best way should be, it is more about understanding that in the middle of the worst storm He is in control of everything.

I have gone through too many changes to put in one little posting, so I will limit this to the main things. I have been saved, I am a Christian, I will strive to be Christ-like in all my ways..... and I have submitted my will to His, because God's will is the only correct will. I am no longer submitting to the fleshly desires of a homosexual lifestyle. I am engaged to a very nice man, and will marry him November 3rd of this year.

a former associate recently told me that she couldn't agree with me killing off such an essential piece of who i was (she said who i am, meaning who she knew me to be). she couldn't get on board with the whole thing, and repeatedly made comments and expressed disapproval... i told her she wasn't someone i needed in my life, and i meant it with every fiber of my being.

I must die of myself, pick up my cross, and follow Jesus.
I will die of myself, pick up my cross and follow Jesus.
I am dying of myself, picking up my cross, and following Jesus.
I can't see this life, my spirit, or this world working without Jesus.
His name is so precious
His word is truth
His death brought life
His will be done
my God has saved me
my God has built me up
my God has protected me
my God has loved me
He has claimed me
He has ordained me
He will not ever fail me
He is the great I AM
I must die of myself, pick up my cross, and follow Jesus
I will die of myself, pick up my cross, and follow Jesus
I am dying of myself, picking up my cross, and following Jesus
I can't see this life, my spirit, or this world, working without Jesus


so i am not 100 percent sure about how to change my user name and things, but i will figure it out.


i am a new creation